The origin and purpose of the spear point youth program
It was April 2019 I had just healed up from an injury the past October the state of my health was stable, but the question was. For how long? Would I just repeat the cycle and continue to the grave, the fear struck the primal instinct. I had been doing this for the last two decades with truly little success. I get well and rebound then falter again and feel the effects of it in everything I did. I was ready to go again in what seemed like the definition of insanity, work, home, pay bills and maybe eventually die. I would be replaced in a matter of weeks if not days by my job and the motions would be put forth.
I was told I had to leave on the 13th and after burning my tax return to repair a vehicle I was hard pressed with funds. I needed another week at least and I was told no, as I lied there in bed that night dreaming off into the darkness I started to think. The cycle repeats itself every time and it well eventually end with my demise. Instead of feeling sorry for myself I started looking at it as opportunity, it had been years sense I spent more then a week out of the grinds of the current society. It was time for that change the answer I had been looking for, just as Odin scarified himself on the wind-swept tree. I had made up my mind that night that I would make this a symbolic sacrifice just like the All Father. Much of our ancestors particular in the mannerbund would leave home and live in Odin’s cults in the wild. I had wanted to reinvigorate that this time, and it would be do or die elsewhere, in a way that maybe my ancestors would smile upon me. This was looked down upon by what or who at that point where my peers.
For six months coming out of the cold grips of winter and wet spring to blazing summer and finally fall I live under the stars. Although I was not entirely deprived of everything, I still had a truck and my job. I barley ever missed a day of work in this time period, I would stay in the highlands of Wisconsin and drive to work on the motorcycle and rarely in the truck. Weekends I would disappear deeper into the national forest. This self-ambition did cost me everything I knew and had worked for, but as Odin’s sacrifice has taught me. “in order to obtain a high self, you must let yourself go and sacrifice everything” You think people who worship a God like Odin would understand that, but that seems not so, it finally ended in October. A year after being injured, I had become injured again, my only injury sustained in this grand event. I had gotten burned in August right before our Frey Fraxi, I had not felt it due to medical conditions which have sense dissipated. I didn’t realize the seriousness of the burns on my feet I performed blot and the following workday checked in for treatment. Second degree burns with slight infection and being a diabetic, I ran the risk of actually losing a leg.
For the remainder of the three months, I camped out ever careful and monitoring my condition trying to figure out how this was going to play. Sure, I had the money for a new place but with not working and no unemployment how I was supposed to hold it together.
Then as the grip of winter set in I meet her I didn’t think we would be where we are today, but we are. I was nursed back to health and back to work and living a healthy life by October she had the understanding of what I was doing and why. She was a heathen as well and we have been learning and studying together. So has her son and who has become my stepson at this point which leads me to the creation of the Spear point youth program. The boy has not had the best father figure in his life, he is barley acknowledged by this individual. At that point I wanted to mentor the boy, I had always kept the rule well courting is that if kids were involved, they should be my own. But who could pass up another heathen as a partner in this day and age? So, I broke that rule and almost two years later we are still together and set to be married on our day of meeting. I am constantly good health her happiness and the boys show bright like the morning sun.
Taking this young man camping, fishing, and hunting has inspired us to create this, these are things younger folk should know for one day they may be in a similar situation and they well remember and survive. For he has gotten lost in the wild woods once already. – Heiliger Mann Bar